They say, a lot can happen over a cup of coffee. It happened to me too. “Me” met “I”, the stronger and better side.
Last evening I sat down with a big cuppa, and since I had all the time in the world, I started thinking about things. Important things, trivial things, but all things related to me. “I” was in my mind. “I” was in all the concoctions brewing in my thoughts, and I just couldn’t let go. I had to think out loud. I had to put together bits and pieces. That’s when I decided to pen down all those ideas, beliefs, feelings, and clear my foggy mind. This will certainly add more clarity to my life, and remind myself of who I am.
1 I CAN.
That’s a magical word! And I want to start believing in it. I don’t want to convince and condition my heart into believing that “I can’t”. Because, God forbid, if my heart starts taking me seriously, I will be crippling myself with the world’s most appalling word! Converting “I can’t” into “I can” will then be a herculean task. So let me embrace the good word, and save myself from the curse of the other bad word.
2 I AM WHERE I ALWAYS WANTED TO BE.
I was busy, very busy these past five years, believe me. I was busy converting a house into home, securing a place here for my future, and re-assuring my mate. Deep down, I know this is exactly where I wanted to be. I also learned about who I am, what I want, and what more I can do with my abilities. Today I understand myself better, see life from a different perspective, and I am more aware of my feelings. So, I must say, it has been a really good investment of my time.
3 I MADE A MISTAKE, BUT I’LL MOVE ON.
Mistakes are important. They bring down your arrogance. They put you back on track. They give you a chance to re-evaluate. So, I’ll allow myself to make mistakes, but I’ll make sure I learn from them. After all, a few risks will only make my life more interesting! I know when I grow old and look back, I’ll not regret the things I did. Rather, it’s the things I didn’t do that I will regret the most. So let me take my chances, and make mistakes.
4 I HAVE A LOT TO SMILE ABOUT.
I have a lot to be thankful for in life. I am not going to talk about it or flaunt, but I am not going to be apologetic about it either. I think I deserve it, and I enjoy it. The best I can do is, take it all inside me, and bring it out in the form of a smile. So that when I look at the mirror, I can see my blessings smiling back at me, and I don’t forget even for a day how much I have.
5 I AM NOT PERFECT, BUT I AM GOOD ENOUGH.
Perfect…I hate the word! I don’t understand it. I don’t know how to do it, or how to be it. I don’t believe in a perfect day, a perfect face, or a perfect life. If it is good enough for me, it is good enough for the world. Perfection is a myth, a never-ending chase, whereas in imperfection I see beauty, mystery, and loads of hope concealed in its every inadequacy.
6 I FAILED, BUT IT’S OK.
To have tried and failed is a sign of a brave soul. Not trying is the sign of the feeble-hearted who let go of a wonderful opportunity. In my failure, I remove the fences I put around my limits and abilities. In my failure, I get the fire to flare up my determination. So, let me replace “I failed” with “I tried”, and keep my door open for the next time.
7 MY FEELINGS ARE JUST FEELINGS, NEITHER GOOD NOR BAD.
Feelings are like wind; random, unpredictable, and sort of, whimsical. It comes and goes, but teases you, tangles you as it brushes you off. Similarly, my feelings and opinions are all erratic, convoluted, and frankly, unreliable. So, when I express myself, it simply reflects my state of mind, spirit, and personal space in that time frame. I don’t take my feelings seriously, and neither should you.
8 I SAY YES PLEASE!
Oh, yes! This is something I got to practice, implement, and start mouthing it. I’ve always loved the word. But, deep within I have feared it too. Sort of like, fear of the unknown jump, fear of falling, or fear of an overwhelming outcome. I realize yes is an opportunity in disguise, and more I say no, the more I am missing out on some great life experiences. “Yes” is a mouthful of nice!